Wife was putting the kids to bed
when I got in
I’ve got a lovely wife
Good human wife
Intelligent
Dependable
Soft knees
She called out to me from the third floor
Honey, that you?
I was indeed the you she was referring to so the answer
Yes dear
Felt appropriate
I was one foot in a thought that felt ten feet too big to be thinking
If I didn’t do anything about it, I could carry on
and clear my head by washing unnaturally sharp spoons before bed,
But I knew it was time to take control and get out the passenger seat of my own misery
It may have sounded like a lie, but how could it when it pointed me to the truth
babe!
I forgot my inhaler at the aquarium,
I’m going to pick it up...
I didn’t have much time to turn on my heel before my wife descended the staircase to interrogate my motivations holding the six emergency inhalers we keep by our bedside table
...I’ll be back before the midnights hour!
I take my only human keys and get in my only human car with my only human confusions and drive down only human roads lit by
red, green and amber lights that don’t judge my only human desires
I turn the knob to 99.9 classic fm and
complicated strings fill the car
It’s a cello solo
Probably played by a beautiful person
I hope they’re a liar too
I stumble out the car
and walk up a freshly paved ramp
I take the keys I’m not allowed to use past 6’clock
and I’m inside
The alarm sounds a warning,
I push the faded buttons and silence fills the concave hall
Blue fluorescent light floods into my eyes and I’m under a spell
I know the way to you with my eyes closed
Past the jelly fish
Take a right at the seahorse
Another right at the plankton
And there you are. Hi.